I have no idea what is wrong with me this week. Feels like I just messed everything up. Feels like everything backfired. Feels like everything is against me. What have I done wrong? What did I do? Tell me tell me. Don't make me wait. I am not much of a waiter. Please don't make me beg. I hate it when I have to beg for something that I know is not that important. Please don't use my inability against me. Why do you have to hurt me like this? What have I done to you that makes you treat me like I am nothing? Please I beg you. I am a human being. You are a human being. We are both created by Allah the Almighty. I feel like crying buckets. Allahu, please please please dear Allah make me stronger. Let me ace in this trial of Yours.